My Dear Son

Dec 22, 2020 Not nights yet, but days. You just wouldn't sleep and is super cranky. Your mom is so stressed out because you want to be fed every 30-50 mins and you wouldn't sleep.  You seem to be so stressed as well and so don't want to sleep. 20 Dec 2020 was one such day. You did not sleep after 7am until 7 pm. You will be napping for a few mins when someone is holding you, but the moment you are put down in the bed, you are up crying wanting to be fed.  I am sure we will forget these days and will never remember them after a few weeks, but I just wanted to remember these days and hence putting this note down :) There were similar days in the 3rd week, but we already forgot those. These kinds of days are real patience tester for both of us. This time it was easier since there were many ppl to take care of you at palluruthy. Now after this long sleepless day of 20th, you were sleeping almost all day and night on 21 which gave us (and you) such a huge relief.  I am pretty ...

Dec 3, 2020 Time flies! With you coming, I am sure it's gonna be even faster. I wanted to make memories of you, how you were, what you did, how you made us feel. I am not a person who writes much, unlike your mom. But I want to make sure I give it a try. Not sure how much I am going to write here, and how much time I will get to do this after putting you to sleep and changing your diapers (not yet me, but soon I am sure I will have to get involved) Can't tell you how much we love you already, you tiny teeny hooman 😘😘😘

Nov 3, 2020 Week 38.2 and my darling Paku has been beating 2 heartbeats for almost 9 months now and in another couple of weeks, our baby baby will be out! I am excited, happy, and anxious - just like how I was for this entire 9 months. Lot of things to be happy about and another lot to be worried, frustrated, and anxious about! I am sure it was more challenging for my baby paku - going through all the physical changes and the emotions driven by the hormonal changes. I had to pack her from Bangalore to Ezhupunna by July with her parents, couldn't meet her or be with her until mid-September because of stupid policies at my work (and COVID, of course)!  I am glad, I could come here by Sept and could stay with my baby Paku, seeing her change week by week and our baby baby growing inside her womb.  It was an amazing journey from March 19 till now, now at the final lap of the course. Hopeful to come out of this holding a tiny hooman being close to our heart in a few weeks'...